… someone has been outside my apartment, down on the street, screaming. Mostly it is just one word, “FUCK!” Shouted over and over again at the top of their lungs. Every so often, there are other words, “YOU RUINED MY LIFE!” and “I HATE YOU!” Most of the rest of it is unintelligible.
I am a second year psychology student. I was told today to put my studies to use and try to understand this guy. WHAT? Okay, so I have a guy in my neighborhood screaming at the top of his lungs while I am trying to sleep and I am supposed to understand him? Okay… I understand that he is angry and frustrated. I understand that my friend has a bit of understanding to get to before she tries to offer this guy a cup of tea or something equally silly.
I understand that I am not cut out to be a counselor. The most amazing thing about the psychology courses, and I really do hope that I am wrong about this, is that I will be able to do counseling when I graduate, even if I only take the one mandatory course. One course! That’s it! I am much more interested in writing and research than in counseling. I do not have the patience to listen to people endlessly going on (or screaming) about themselves.
I find it amazing that I am expecting you to read this! Although, I think I would read it, if I found it in someone else’s blog. It’s simply a bit of introspection aroused by the pain of a fellow human being, who is screaming outside of my apartment…
Sleep will be dear again tonight.
I wrote this very late last night. I did not post it right away because I was thinking that it was not a very positive post. But then, if all of my posts were to be positive, this would not be a very honest journal… I think I will keep this an honest account of things I feel, see, and do. It feels better that way.